It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year!

And no, I do not mean Christmas. It's Halloween! Seriously this is my most favorite time of year. It's starting to get colder, the leaves start to fall and it's a time of good treats and lots to eat! It's going to be a great season!

I woke up this morning convinced that I shouldn't go to school today. But after the long and treacherous battle in my head, logic held out and won. So here I am am, 8:58 am, in the library, already done with one class for the day. My 10 o'clock class got cancelled so I decided to use that time to come to the library, a rare occurrence. I don't know why but the library seriously gives me anxiety or something. I can't concentrate here. So much to look at and so many people to watch. Why can't I be dedicated like the 15 people around me and actually do something productive for once? The only people that are in the library at 9:01am are the ones that are seriously dedicated to school. Then there's little me just blogging. Oh goodness. I decided like a month ago that I was going to forget about trying to have a life and seriously be dedicated to school. Unfortunately, this doesn't seem to be possible for me. Dedication to school just isn't something that I can make myself do. It's the lame pre-requisite and general classes that kill me. Why can't I just be in my major? I say that now, but I don't think school is going to get any easier once I get in the program. In fact, life is just going to get busier. That's for sure one thing that I've learned. Life isn't going to get better once I finish this semester, or it's not going to get easier once I graduate. Life is always going to have challenges. That's why I'm here. I'm in a test. In fact, I'm close to the end of my test, I just need to hold out for the last few problems. I've made it this far, why give up now?

I don't know why, probably because it's almost Halloween and the Holidays but I have this odd obsession with candy. I've never been a huge candy fan; much rather have baked goods. But lately, I've been like overly obsessed with eating candy. All candy, I don't care what kind. My roommate posted an article on my other roommate's facebook about candy. It talked about how candy has a bad reputation for having lots of sugar when really, cookies and juice have just as much sugar as candy. Candy just gets a bad rep. One statistic that surprised me was that only 6% of sugar consumption comes from candy where about 46% of it comes from juice. See? candy isn't that bad. It's probably because we all grow up learning that candy is bad and so we're all brainwashed and grow up drinking lots of juice when really, they're both loaded with sugar. So, let's use that excuse and just eat candy.

I've decided that I live in a bubble. I don't know anything about the world around me. I watched part of the news this morning but I didn't have time to watch anything more than the weather. But I'm going to try harder. I feel so out of it when things are going on in the world and I don't find out about them until weeks later. How am I supposed to help the cause if I don't even know the issues that I can help with. I want to become aware and then help others to become aware so that together we can do something about it.

Where is the Love?

With all of the contentions going on right now, it makes me think of the Black Eyed Peas song "Where Is the Love?" I hate when something like this happens when groups of people disagree with something that was said by another group. I hate how some people can't accept another person's opinion. That's one thing each of us is entitled to and has the right to occupy, an opinion. We don't have to agree on everything but we do have to respect that each and every one of us has the right to our own opinions and belief. That is the beauty of the agency that we have.

In this song some lyrics are: "But if you only have love for your own race, then you only leave space to discriminate and to discriminate only generates hate." Dorky, I know but there is some truth in this. When we have a one track mind and don't appreciate differences in others, it only leaves room for us to disrespect others. It's our differences that make us each who we are. So I say it once and I'll say it again, "Where is the love?"